Cue Insecurity

I’m in the midst of rewriting a YA contemporary fantasy, and my inner editor is sabotaging the flow. I’ve got a rough outline to guide me through the structure of the story I’ve in mind, I have a Beginning, at least one major Turning Point and an End, so a few of the big building blocks are there. But still I’m creatively stuck. I’ve read/rewritten/read/rewritten some chapters so many times, that I’m bored with my own writing. Cue insecurity.

I should abandon this project.

I am never going to finish.

If I finish it is going to be Boring (yes capital B) and no one is going to read it.

 

Maybe this is the point where I should try to find some Beta readers. Cue insecurity.

 

I won’t find any.

I can’t possibly let anyone read this boring story.

If someone reads this, you are never going to finish.

 

Guess this writing thing means: continue writing. Even when your brain is in the way/ you are bored/ you feel insecure/ you want to abandon the Thing.

 

Send help.

10 thoughts on “Cue Insecurity”

  1. You got this!
    I always try to remember that it might seem boring or predictable to me simply because I wrote it.
    Maybe set it aside for a day or two and do some painting or start writing something else. I think a little imposter syndrome or insecurity pushes us to be better. Having those doubts means you care. The writers I’ve come across that have no doubts and believe they wrote the best thing ever are the ones that have stories or writing that I never enjoy and they don’t work to improve.

    Good luck!

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    1. Thank you for the encouragement! I’m afraid that if I write on another story, I won’t return, but maybe I can write something set in the same world, outside of the story. Good tips! Thanks 😁

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  2. I’ve had a lot of story ideas over the years that I thought were amazing, and then I really got into them, and I was like “really?” What I’ve found has helped most, it stepping away from them for a while and not actively thinking about them. Every once and a while, I’ll think about the story and write down a few thoughts, and then ignore it for a while. I like to say that I’m letting the story percolate. Sometimes, when you step away, it gets stronger.

    I also agree that it might just seem boring because you’ve been stuck in it for so long. I had a moment where I thought I was punching people in the face with foreshadowing, and I’m not sure if I actually was, or if it was just because I knew what happened. I rewrote SEVERAL chapters as a result, so I’ll never know for sure.

    Finally, if you are feeling bored with the story, it will start to come across in your writing, which might be why it seems boring. When I’m editing, I can always tell if I was struggling with a particular area, because it feels like it when I’m reading through. Maybe if you step away for a while and find something to make you excited about the story again, it’ll make a difference.

    Best of luck!

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    1. Wow! Thank you for your comment. I really appreciate you taking the time. I’ve decided to work on the parts that exite me and let everything else as it is. I don’t have a liniear brain so I’ve to stop trying to get from a to z in order and just start at a because everyone knows that’s a cool letter. Anyways.. sorry for the rambling! I really appreciated your thoughts on this. 👍🏻

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      1. No problem! I think we’ve all been there. I also find, if I’m working on a particular area (I write linear) and I’m struggling, I’ll just write in all caps what I’m hoping to say there, and it makes coming back to it later a little easier, plus it doesn’t really stop my flow. I usually hate myself a little for it later, but it’s been very helpful.

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